i’ve been a very sad creature the past 24 hours. actually the past 5 months, but more so the past day.
i feel lonely, and i miss my dad, and i am tired of feeling compelled to tell people that if i’m remote or distant, or uncommunicative it’s because i’m sad and lonely.
while i’d love to reach out to people and say “hey! i’m sad, but would like to sit quietly with someone, anyone and not have to talk or have people cheer me up or even watch movies” i am also having a hard time imagining being around people. i’m ignoring phone calls and not responding to emails because i don’t really want to be with someone, anyone either.
so while i’m confused and lonely, i have to figure things out. sorry if i owe you call or an email or a visit. hopefully i’ll be able to do that soon.